Is a word that describes a confused or disorderly mass or collection of things…that is what this post is…
I am not sure why I found today to be such a struggle…but it was. I think maybe I just don’t feel good, I feel run down. Seasons changing? I have not slept well the past few nights( very large bed and I am on 8 inches of it while two 20 lbs schnauzers take up the other 10ft) and I think my body is staging it’s own private protest against all the healthy food it is getting. I thought briefly that what I might need is just a little cake…but luckily my big girl voice spoke up and said “shut it” to that little voice we all have sitting quietly waiting for just the wrong moment to speak up.You will be pleased to know that I did not have any cake…oatmeal rather with some cinnamon and a drizzle of honey. It was not cake, but it was also not cabbage soup…so I am grateful. It’s all perspective really.
I think I felt a rib yesterday. That is big news for me, some might think that is silly talk and while I KNOW they are there, I don’t really have a close relationship with them, we just kinda co-exist in the same body together so I kinda feel like I am getting to know a new neighbor. Now don’t get excited it’s not sticking out or anything, I could just feel it under there after a little poking around.
I am dreading the time change, okay I am fearing the time change. Dark when I wake up and dark when I walk out of work. I find it very depressing. I am going to swim 3 nights at the gym and maybe do a dance class and I am hoping the walking group can sustain itself through most of the winter. I am thinking of taking guitar lessons. I need something to do that is not related to food. Winter is hard, I am part polar bear I like to hibernate and eat and those are two things that simply CAN NOT happen this winter.
Doing the best I can and sometimes it does not seem like enough but it is. I watched Oprah tonight and she said so…we all know Oprah knows everything 🙂