Loving and Letting go.

In a split second she was gone. It was over, the fight, the struggle, the pain dissolving into nothingness and what remained was a roomful of soft glowing love. It was everywhere and washed over me like the warmest comforting blanket sent down from God himself. As I felt myself take in a big chestful […]

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December 30th, 2011 by dogl2324

Yes, the brown patch on the Levi’s feels different.

It has been a crazy two weeks, with Christmas last week and fighting my way through the food of the season, and this week spending almost all my time in the hospital with my mom being there for my Aunt as she fights her own battle. I have not been to the gym in 12 […]

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December 29th, 2011 by dogl2324

Life…

can change in a moment, life can change so slowly over time you can’t comprehend how it happened, and life can end in a second. My Christmas was unexpected, terrifying and glorious all rolled into one giant ball of chaos. Food was perhaps the farthest thing from my mind. I have talked many times about […]

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December 27th, 2011 by dogl2324

Holiday hookers, happiness and hope.

Love Came Down at Christmas , Love all lovely, love divine; Love was born at Christmas, Star and angels gave the sign. —C. Rossetti   Last night as I sat in a pew at Calvary Episcopal Church in Clifton, I randomly opened my hymnal and this is what  I read. I could not get the […]

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December 25th, 2011 by dogl2324

Consumption.

The past few days have been a bit of a blur with the Christmas holiday fast approaching and while I have a very small list of those to buy for which consists of a few close friends and my mom I still feel the frantic flag waiving wildly in front of me as if it […]

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December 23rd, 2011 by dogl2324

Tristan’s first Christmas.

Sometimes when I look at him I can’t comprehend how anyone could have hurt this dog to the degree that he still suffers from night terrors, still has doubts that I might turn against him, and still belly crawls back to his crate if I move too quickly or mindlessly pick up an object that […]

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December 18th, 2011 by dogl2324

Another one (okay, seven) bites the dust…

Woke up early, fought the rain, drove down crazy Columbia Parkway where life and death are separated by nothing more than a solid yellow line on the road. Got to Dr. B’s office she greets me every single time with optimism and a look of kindness that I am very grateful for! Coat off, scarf […]

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December 15th, 2011 by dogl2324

The Coat.

There is a story that I think of this time of year without fail every time we get close to Christmas. The memories I have of my father are for the most part when he was old, when his mind and body were failing him but this is one of my very favorite memories of […]

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December 14th, 2011 by dogl2324

bargain basement prices…

Literally. In my basement is where my washer and dryer live, and I have bins and shelves of clothes stored down there from so many years I am embarrassed to say. I discovered over the weekend that there is a whole department store full of clothes that I couldn’t get into until now, many with […]

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December 13th, 2011 by dogl2324

Journeyman

This weekend was filled with holiday commitments, food, friends, work, shopping, with a little dose of stress just to make the season complete. Friday night I worked at Playhouse and we were slammed with the holiday crowds, serving  Shirley Temples for kids and something a bit stronger for the adults. I had a great night […]

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December 12th, 2011 by dogl2324

What is it worth?

So while I report my weigh in results every other week on here, I still show up at Dr. Beiter’s office  faithfully every Thursday. I do this so I have a gauge of how I am doing and can make any adjustments needed for the following week. Sometimes those adjustments are out of my control […]

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December 8th, 2011 by dogl2324

chewing the fat…

I had a conversation with a woman awhile back about gastric by-pass and lap band procedures and not really by choice. This woman did not know me from adam but she felt the need to share with me her experiences in the grocery as I picked out asparagus, smelled oranges and tried to remember if […]

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December 7th, 2011 by dogl2324

kindness.

I try hard to be a kind person as I walk through the world. I am not always successful as the man who cut me off in traffic this morning can tell you, but my intent is always there.  I want to believe I am a good friend to others, I have many amazing friends […]

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December 4th, 2011 by dogl2324

No Coincidence.

I could feel it coming all week. The unraveling of me, the sensation of feeling the enemy at my heels but when I would turn around to look it was nothingness. The day started out by getting weighed and seeing that I had gained two pounds. It bothered me, it presents itself in the form […]

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December 2nd, 2011 by dogl2324

$#&%

Weight in day. I am up two pounds and totally frustrated. It’s not a huge amount but I am still pretty frustrated after such a good experience at Thanksgiving.  I should have weighed in on Monday like Dr. B and I talked about but it was raining, with a ton of traffic in the morning […]

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December 1st, 2011 by dogl2324