walk this way

Tonight was the weekly “dog-lbs” walking group. A group of folks meet every week at a local park and we walk about 4 miles together. Everyone is welcome to bring their dogs so there is generally a lil pack of four legged sweeties walking with us. We have walked every week since September 1st with a few exceptions. There has not been a week I have walked alone. Every time the walk was scheduled people showed up. In the heat, in the cold, in the poring rain. We have encountered wind storms, massive downpours, we have walked with pulled muscles, sore knees and colds. I know people showed up when they would have rather been at home, or out with friends, or doing some other activity that did not involve dog poo and sweating!

Walking is how I lost the massive amount of weight when I weighed over 600lbs, because when you are that big there is just nothing else you can do. When I first started it was a wretched sight and I would only walk at night or early in the morning when the sun had not peeked out to say hello yet. I did not want people to see me move, to stare at  the rolls of fat dancing around my body like a well orchestrated waltz.  I started out by walking one time around our small block, I could do no more. I was out of breath and pretty sure death was near, but death never came and I lived to walk another day. I was walking everyday and every couple of days I would add more, and when I could walk for longer stretches I walked the flood wall that surrounded our small town in Kentucky, it circles the high school and the little area where we had band practice when I was in high school.  It is  a beautiful walk, which took me right along the Ohio river, my dog at the time was a tan and white siberian husky named Azul. She never let me down, she never judged me but she did always push me to go further…and I did. I must have walked a thousand miles on that wall. Most of the time I would walk alone just me and  my dog, walk-man on, trying desperately not to hear the cruel remarks of disgust as I waddled past people, even when I tried so hard to drowned out the sound I could still hear the words as they echoed in my head. “God, why even try if you’re that fat” and I can still see the woman’s face who said those words.  Walking was my solace, it is the one thing that always gave me hope that I could change and I always had my zool-bug  by my side.

Although my sweet Azul is resting at the rainbow bridge with my Dad, I still walk on the same flood wall today with Maggie and Tully and one day soon Tristan will come with us. Today I am able to walk the whole thing with little effort but it never fails that I am flooded with memories on that wall, of days gone by, of  band camp, high school secrets and meeting up late on Friday nights after a football game to watch the world go by sitting along the dark shadowy waters of the river.

I am so blessed that I don’t have to walk alone now. I don’t have to dream about changing anymore. I am changing. I have changed. Thank you Sarah, Tony, Debbie, Big Al, Rachel, Kate, Deb, Jessica, Mary, Maggie, Pudge, Val, Rio, , Latte, Tully, Maggie H, Dukers, JD, Star, Bart, and any number of Recycled Doggie foster pups. You keep me on track, motivated, and in awe of your dedication to me and this project, and most of all…your friendship.

 

The dog-lbs walking group

xo

 

 

 

6 Comments

  1. Moody says:

    That just makes me wish I had a dog again.
    Only problem I have is, I don’t have the time to take proper care of it. I can’t get a puppy, coz I’m gone for 12 hours a day, 5 days a week. I wouldn’t feel good about leaving a young pup alone for so long.
    Besides, I wouldn’t be able to get it housebroken or trained at all.
    But I do miss the interaction.

    When you go out for a walk with your dog, you’re bound to run into other dog owners and a conversation is never far away. I used to take my dog to the woods nearby. It also has a park area with large water fountain and during summer, that is THE rendezvous point for all dog lovers. Most of the time, it’s buzzing with activity and dogs are running all over the place. All kinds of dogs, all kinds of owners, all kinds of stories.
    I miss that.

    I’m happy you’re getting your weekly dosage of support along with the exercise and I would love to meet that nasty woman who said those horrible things about you. I could teach her some manners …..
    Or maybe we should just grab her and take her to Recycled Doggies for a little heart-to-heart with life. Finally, I think a before and after set of pictures would shut her up.

    You’re doing great, Lori, despite everything.
    Keep your chin up and your feet moving. You will show people wrong.

    • dogl2324 says:

      Aww you will have a dog again someday, good for you though in knowing that you don’t have time right now. So many people get them and then what the dogs needs comes second to what they want…makes me sad. lol I am glad to know you have my back with the nasty lady! 😉 I am feeling inspired and motivate as we move into the new year! How are you doing?
      L

      • Moody says:

        I’m doing okay. Just got on the scales again the other day and it’s confirmed, I did not gain in the past few weeks. Since I haven’t been to the pool in almost 2 months (time flies when you’re not looking), I consider that a good thing.
        I’m looking forward to my first swim in weeks, which will be tomorrow night. I hope I’ll be able to get away from work a little early, so I can make it to the pool before dark (not going to hold my breath for it though). I think the early darkness is my biggest hurdle right now. I’m tired all the time and don’t feel like doing anything. I’m uninspired at work and I hardly find the time to get to my hobbies. On Friday, I got fed up and I stopped at the pharmacy to get me some energizers. I got some vitamins that should help get my energy back up and I also got advise on the pills I’ve had for a while but never really dared take, because the notice didn’t explain well enough how and when to take them. They should help me relax, which should help me sleep better. That will probably help with the energy issue as well.

        And I know how time and energy consuming a dog can be, I got my first when I was 5 and I’ve always had one, until a few years ago. I will get another dog. Some day.

        • dogl2324 says:

          How did your swim go? Feeling more energized, and relaxed? I find the darkness a huge challange as well, dark when I get up and almost dark when I get home. Hard time of the year for sure, You keep plugging away, it’s all we can do girl! 😉

  2. Debbie Rasnick says:

    Wow – look how long Pudge’s legs are… Didn’t know you guys were all leggy giants. 😉 Great post. Love doing the walk with you. Looking forward to Spring when we are walking in daylight again!

    • dogl2324 says:

      Lol! Optical illusion for sweet Pudge? I am so looking forward to walking in the spring can’t wait! Thank you for always being there and keeping me honest…even when it pours down! xo

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