Sometimes I like to make lists of things. I just do. Maybe I find it easier, tonight it makes things easier.
1.) I worry I don’t know who I am without the weight, it is all I have known and while I know it is not who I am, I have never been without it. It scares me.
2.) Tonight I had a great workout, although I pulled a groin muscle. I didn’t even know girls had those, I thought those were exclusive to boys, but let me tell you that we do have them and holy equivalent of toothache pain batman…they hurt! I hope this is short lived.
3.) I feel like my body is hating me as I push hard and ask more of it, more than I ever have. I can feel my body changing and while I know muscle is good, it makes me panic to get on the scale. I don’t want to disappoint Lindsey who has worked so hard with me the past few weeks or anyone else. Must. let. go. of. number.
4.) Tristan had a hard night, I never understand the things that scare him, he would not come in tonight after I turned the ceiling fan off in the kitchen and the reflection of the blades could be seen outside as dusk was over and it began to get dark out. He sat scared just beyond the back porch refusing to come inside s0 I sat too along with Tully and when he decided he was ready he got up and we followed and he came in like nothing happened at all. He deals with his own demons in his own way, this I am sure of…
5.) It has been awhile since I posted a recipe so I am going to post below one of the things I did for a cooking gig over the weekend. It’s Edamame Hummus and it’s so tasty and very healthy, I like eating it with crispy jicama or asparagus spears.
2 cups shelled edamame
1 lemon juiced and zested
3 cloves garlic
1 tsp ground cumin
3 tbs olive oil
1/4 cup water
3 tbs chopped chives
Boil beans for 4-5 minuets set aside to cool, in blender or food processor add all ingredients (except olive oil and salt and pepper) and puree then add olive oil and incorporate until smooth. Add salt and pepper to taste. Serve with any vegetables, sweet potato chips or crackers you like.