Pride.

I gained four pounds at this weigh-in. Is it what I want to see? Absolutely not, but while the scale was not my friend I promise you I have worked hard and will continue to work hard in the next two weeks and hold my head up high and be proud as I do the best I can.

I ran yesterday, I ran with Jessica next to me and I pushed hard when I thought I could not go any further, I worked hard for Lindsey who was at a work function and not with me, but I could see her face of encouragement and that along with seeing Jess next to me and how strong she is, how at times her strides seem effortless, how I want to run like that, it pushed me further. We were on the treadmill for an hour, I alternated between walking and running hitting my goal of 5 minutes at one time only once but running 4 minutes at a time twice the rest in 3 minutes and 2 minute intervals. I thought of what my longtime friend Steve said to me,

“a marathoner does not run the same split every mile; usually they hit the wall and they push through until they get their second wind.”

while I am not a marathoner, I will push through until I get my second wind.

I am winning this fight, no matter what the scale says, my spirit is stronger than any number and I am shedding this skin, this fear, this shame. I will no longer give up on myself when things get hard…

These pictures say it better than any words I can write. ..

 

 

 

 

17 Comments

  1. Linda Troy says:

    A woman who at 60 conditioned and walked the Appalachian Trail said she started by walking past one house in the neighborhood and then running past a house, walking, running, then walking past 1 house and running past 2 houses, walking 1, running 2, etc. You can do it, too.

    Look at you, girl! You are running!!

    LT

    • dogl2324 says:

      I am running! I find myself saying or thinking that every single time! It’s true one house at a time will get me where I want to be!
      xo

  2. I’m sending a donation to let you know I’m pulling for you and know you are going to be successful.
    Lillian

  3. John S. says:

    I too, believe in you.

  4. Moody says:

    I hate to run.
    Always have, always will.
    I remember in school, we had to do the Cooper test, a 12 minute run. It was hell on earth. I never made it. Not once.
    You will.
    Soon enough.
    You’ll outrun the fittest of them all.
    A time will come, when that morbidly obese girth will chase down some or other disrespectful punk and *catch* him.

    You’re taking this one step at a time, but the most important part is that you keep taking steps, no matter what.
    Always forward.
    Always onward.

    Keep your head up and your eyes on the ball and trust in this: You WILL make it.
    I believe in you.

    • dogl2324 says:

      LOL…it’s a nice thought to be able to run down a punk! Thank you for always believing and for all your kind words Moody!

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