run a mile in my shoes…

I have been wanting to get new shoes to run in for awhile now, but have been putting it off because of my own fears. If I go into a store for runners would they laugh at me? Would they treat me differently? Would they think what in the world is this morbidly obese woman even doing here? I have not fully wrapped my head around the idea that the way I see myself is not how the world sees me anymore. Slowly I am opening my eyes to the reality that I walk through the world differently now, and sometimes I run through it.

Yesterday I went with Lindsey and Jessica to Bob Roncker’s Running Spot in Newport, KY to stand tall, walk in like I belonged and buy some new shoes that would help me as I begin my running regiment.

We walked in and I let Lindsey and Jess go first as a  friendly woman greeted us and asked if we were there to register for the “Gorilla Race”, Lindsey said no we are here to buy shoes, and the woman asked who was getting new shoes and all of the sudden Jess stepped to one side and Lindsey stepped to the other as if parting the red sea and I was exposed, my eyes met the slender fit woman and Lindsey said “She is”…(gulp)! The women smiled and said with much enthusiasm “Great!” I wanted to cry right then, I wanted to hug her and thank her for not making me feel bad, for not making me ashamed that I had set foot in the store. I wanted to thank her for treating me like a normal person who was coming to buy running shoes like everyone else.

I would find out that her name was “Meggie” and she explained everything to me about how good running shoes make a difference, how they work and about my feet in particular. She measured and did a test to check my arch and off she went to pick out some offerings for me to try on. I ended up getting a lovely pair of New Balance woman’s shoes that felt great! An insert to help with my plantar fasciitis and saucy new socks that are NOT cotton. Who knew?

Jessica had bought a pair of new shoes there the day before and I looked over and Lindsey was trying on shoes for herself as well…a new running shoe frenzy taking place! We checked out and headed to the gym to try em out! I doubt Meggie will ever know how much her kindness meant to me, but I will forever be grateful as she is one more person who is helping me leave the past where it belongs.

Thank you Meggie, first 5k is dedicated to you!




  1. Shannon says:

    I don’t know — I see you in that photo above and all I can think is “she’s turning into a jock!” I bet a year ago you could imagine you’d be buying shoes for RUNNING. Way to go! 🙂

  2. Debra Hildebrand says:

    You are my hero. You go girl!

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