It has been a really good week. I have not overbooked myself, I have cooked, eaten very well through the week and I found myself at the gym 4 times so far. Monday night with Lindsey, Wednesday night with Jonesy and Lauren, Thursday morning with Lindsey and tonight with AC/DC, Tina Turner and the Indigo Girls blaring in my ear. I have a big bike ride scheduled tomorrow and I am taking a yoga class with Jess on Sunday morning. I have a lot to be proud of…
Tonight on my way home I was craving onion rings, don’t know why and it does not matter why, I wanted the little suckers and so the mind games began. Frisch’s Big Boy is right by the gym, THEY have onion rings, then that voice in my head spoke (you know the one) about how good I have been all week and how I deserved to eat one thing I really wanted and that I could….STOP, STOP, STOP! I almost scared myself the internal voice of reason was deafening in it’s plea to be heard over the voice of want. THINK about it, the sweat, the soreness, the blueberries, oatmeal, kale and the promises you have made. Think about Lindsey, Jonesy, Lauren, Jenny, Jess…they were beside you this week and it’s not for you to fuck it up at a drive thru! Think about how disappointed you will be in yourself for this choice, and it’s a choice that is up to you, and you alone. What is it going to be? Then two things pop into my head…..two gifts that would change my course for the evening.
First, Micheal Pollan’s book Food Rules, (which I love and highly suggest reading all of his books) one of the rules is as follows:
“Rule #39 Eat all the junk food you want as long as you cook it yourself.
Pollan goes on to say…
“There is nothing wrong with eating sweets, fried foods, pastries, even drinking soda every now and then, but food manufacturers have made eating these formerly expensive and hard-to-make treats so cheap and easy that we’re eating them every day. The french fry did not become America’s most popular vegetable until industry took over the jobs of washing, peeling, cutting, and frying the potatoes — and cleaning up the mess. If you made all the french fries you ate, you would eat them much less often, if only because they’re so much work. The same holds true for fried chicken, chips, cakes, pies, and ice cream. Enjoy these treats as often as you’re willing to prepare them — chances are good it won’t be every day.”
Second I had onions at home.
I did not stop at Frisch’s on this Friday night with no plans, instead I made pizza… and onion rings, and they were delicious and crunchy and not fried! Here is now I made my dinner. My intentions were to make enough for me, so adjust the amount if you are cooking for more.
I started out with one wild sweet vidalia onion sliced into not to thick rings.
I beat an egg in a shallow dish and in a separate dish I made a dredge of whole wheat flour, panko, salt, pepper and a pinch of cayenne pepper. I sprinkled a tablespoon or so of whole wheat flour over the raw onions, dipped them into the egg, then into the dredge mixture and onto a baking sheet that I coated with a touch of olive oil, then I spritzed the top of them with a bit more olive oil.
I baked them at 425 degrees for about 15 minuets. Sprinkled the with maldon sea salt just out of the oven.
Nothing fancy at all about this, I used a Trader Joe’s frozen nan for the crust, spread about 2tbs of organic marinara sauce on, then I loaded it with my favorite toppings. Spinach, mushrooms, green olives, goat cheese and some skim milk mozzarella.
It was excellent and satisfied my craving for onion rings, without the shame of a visit to a drive thru which would have left me with disappointment, shame and gross soggy onion rings that are never as good as they look on the commercials. More than likely the anger that I “blew it” after eating the Frisch’s food would have led me to binge for the night, which meant that I could have easily visited 5-6 different restaurants and consumed 6,000-8,000 calories easily.
After years of binging on food, using it as a tool to numb the pain and slowly kill myself this is a big deal for me, I am not saying that I will never binge again or that my toxic relationship with food is totally behind me that is not realistic. I work every single day to make good decisions and this time I managed to drive right threw to the place where I took the time to healthfully prepare and enjoy my “junk food” , it is a different way to think, a different way to eat and for me a much better way of life.
Thank you Micheal Pollan for saving me tonight!