The fly by…day one.

Nope, still here. I promise!

My birthday came and went at the beginning of  June and I was feeling pretty good. Having worked hard for the wedding I was in toward the middle of April, I made a mistake, a mis-step, and I knew better.

The birthday celebration turned into a month long big food distraction. Literally the month flew by and at the end of it I felt awful. Each year the stress of the opera season somehow gets worse for me, and the amount of food that is strategically placed around the office is mind blowing. In a 2 hour period one day last week I had available and seductively advertised to me, bagels with cream cheeses, donuts, brownies, and leftover cake. This was all before lunch, BEFORE LUNCH PEOPLE!

I am a strong woman but  St. Lori I am not (in so, so many ways!)  Actually that particular day I did not eat any of those things but it took me barking my intentions of what I was not eating to Scott every 30 minutes, the guy seriously deserves a damn congressional medal of armor for dealing with my battle of the bulge.

I would be lying if I said it was just the food, it’s far from it. The stress combined with no time to exercise, no routine, no time to write, and no time to foster for Recycled Doggies is a pretty toxic mix for me.  My problems may seem small, and in the reality of much bigger hardships people face each day, I am almost embarrassed to talk about it. Almost… and I say that because it has the potential to drag me back into a very bad place pretty quickly. I decided I have to do what I need to do in order to make it through the rest of the crazy season. The next twenty five days will go do fast for me, if I can get my shit together, focus and make good decisions I can come out the other end feeling good about working hard and getting myself ready to move forward and not have July knock me to my knees.

Tomorrow starts 25 days in a row with no day off; I finish up on August 2nd. I have two choices; do what I did the month of June which is not an option for me. The second choice is to suck it up and find a way to post each day and write about the choices I have made. I don’t have to be perfect but I have to be present and in the moments when it matters make good decisions… will I shove two donuts in my mouth when no one is looking or will I split one donut with Lauren and enjoy that portion knowing I did not use my  nemeses of “stress shoveling” to deal with (insert any one of the many emotional discomforts here)  but actually be able to taste and enjoy what I have decided to eat.

I hate starting this stuff on a Monday so I started today. Being prepared is what it’s all about, so I cooked some brown rice, poaches some chicken/sauteed a ton of veggie for lunches and made oatmeal bars with lots of healthy things in them and no refined sugar, cut up fruit, portioned out dates and dried apricots for my sweet tooth and began juicing a bit. I had bought a juicer a month ago, and there is stayed by the basement door ( I couldn’t’ possibly move it to use because the cat really liked sleeping on it!) Today was the day the cat was out of luck, and my first concoction was beet/carrot/blueberry/ginger/lime and it was dang tasty, the only drawback is that I felt like I should be in a Twilight movie biting on somebody’s neck.

 

 

My new craft cocktail... "The Hoxworth"

My new craft cocktail… “The Hoxworth”

 

Every day. I will post something. Every day. Help hold me to it if you can. At the end of the 25 days I want to be in a great place to keep moving forward.

x

L

“We all make mistakes, have struggles, and even regret things in our past. But you are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future.”-Steve Maraboli

 

 

6 Comments

  1. anna nielsen says:

    Lori:
    Am happy to see you are getting back into the groove again. I know I look for your posts and am amazed at your persistence with your weight issue. Glad to get on the backing crew to help you along your journey. Have never even met you, nor have spoken to you, but we are friends on FB….what an awesome gal you are…..you go girl!! Being posted from up here in Wisconsin! HUGS~

    • dogl2324 says:

      Thank so much Anna, I especially need the good vibes from you and Ghoster to keep me in line! May take me a while to get where I need to be but I won’t give up. 😉 xx

  2. Lillian says:

    I’ve missed seeing your posts. You have to post something every day for all of your fans and supporters. Good luck.
    Lillian

    • dogl2324 says:

      Thank you Lillian! It’s weird but I have missed posting, it’s become such an important part of this journey to me! I appreciate you keeping me in line! xx

      Lori

  3. Aaren says:

    You go Lori! I’m right there with you – trying to get healthier after a horrible couple months of bad eating habits. I’m a total emotional eater too, and I especially love the carbs so our office is a mine field for me as well! Feel free to call me if you need someone to tell you the donuts have maggots in them – or someone to split one with you 🙂

    • dogl2324 says:

      We are going to dodge the carb filled work mine field together, girl! Same goes for you…I am just a floor or phone call away! Ha! The maggot thing totally works for me! Ugh. Thank you so much…
      x

      L

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