The other night I went to dinner with friends as we celebrated Eric’s birthday and I was reminded how food was meant to be eaten. Lauren and I have always shared food, and especially over the past few years if there is a special occasion where it would be easy to overeat and indulge to […]
Go to post pageThis post was written on Sunday, April 7th. The first sign of spring peeked out from winter’s hideaway today, the sun and warmth giving hope to rebirth, growth and change. It would be the perfect morning for an adventure the day before Lindsey leaves for Knoxville. I would pick up donuts at a little […]
Go to post pageThis is not really a Thanksgiving leftover recipe but I suppose it could be. We did not have sweet potatoes for Thanksgiving this year (crazy I know) but I did have two on hand as well as a couple of zucchini’s that I wanted to use before they went bad. Here is what I came […]
Go to post pageIt is Monday night and today was day 1 of the 10 days Lindsey will be gone on vacation. I talked to her tonight and she said “be good” and so I will. It means something to me, to give my word and to try my very best to be the best I can everyday […]
Go to post pageThat is the hill I am walking up…it is getting good and steep. Work is so stressful that I fight everyday to not comfort myself with the food that is everywhere in my world. I am working hard with Lindsey, I am hurling myself forward to not be stagnant, to not give my past bad […]
Go to post pageI feel like I am pulling myself toward the 50lb mark with all my might, but not quite there. Today’s weigh in was not bad, I managed to lose the 4 lbs I gained and 2 additional pounds for a 6 lbs loss this weigh in bringing me to 343. It seems like breaking through […]
Go to post pageMy Dad. This post is about my Dad and baseball. The best memories I have of him, the memories that comfort me the most are the ones that send me back with the smell of a hot dog, the cheer of the crowd and sharing a box of cracker jacks after the seventh inning stretch […]
Go to post pageI have been wanting to get new shoes to run in for awhile now, but have been putting it off because of my own fears. If I go into a store for runners would they laugh at me? Would they treat me differently? Would they think what in the world is this morbidly obese woman […]
Go to post pageI gained four pounds at this weigh-in. Is it what I want to see? Absolutely not, but while the scale was not my friend I promise you I have worked hard and will continue to work hard in the next two weeks and hold my head up high and be proud as I do the […]
Go to post pageIt does not sound like a lot of time. 240 seconds is not earth shattering longevity by anyone’s standards unless you are underwater or you are me on the treadmill, running. Sandwiched between Jessica and Lindsey, I ran on the treadmill for 4 minutes yesterday without stopping. When I started I could not run one […]
Go to post pageI promised to write about the hard things… I have not been my best self this week and while I know we all falter it is hard to hang the laundry on the line for everyone to look at, but it’s part of my healing and the key to moving forward. “There is cake in […]
Go to post pageSometimes I like to make lists of things. I just do. Maybe I find it easier, tonight it makes things easier. 1.) I worry I don’t know who I am without the weight, it is all I have known and while I know it is not who I am, I have never been without it. […]
Go to post pageThere was a time I could no longer fit behind the steering wheel of a car, my girth was too much for the space between the wheel and the back of the seat. I had already broken the seat and we put an old green pickle bucket behind the drivers side wedged down so the […]
Go to post pageYes, I am still following my NCAA bracket which has all but disintegrated into a pile of airless basketballs. I can’t really be surprised, I based my picks of which teams outfits or colors were best, or what towns had the best BBQ (North Carolina or Kansas?) and which cities or states have given me […]
Go to post pageTIP OF THE TONGUE – Donnis Trio it was a summer night and i was sleeping the moon was out, my head was beaming i looked at my dreams like they were gold amazing feelings draw within me all my conflicts slip beneath me like the spirit of a song or like the feeling of […]
Go to post pageThis morning off to Dr. B’s office I go to get weighed, feeling good hoping I would see a little loss from two weeks ago. It was nice out, I had the windows down and the music up…singing along to my Indigo Girls and I would soon realize as their song “Shame on you” […]
Go to post pageOkay, I am sore. I mean I am really sore and it’s not a bad thing, it’s exciting to know this WILL pay off! Right now my body is not particularly happy with me, especially my…well my whole lower body is staging a revolt at the present moment. I think if my thighs and calves […]
Go to post pageMore and more I believe in the power of suggestion, the power of putting a thought into the universe or asking for something and it comes to you in the oddest and often times most perfect forms. Some call it prayer, some call it karma, whatever label you want to attach to it, I call […]
Go to post pageIt was the night of a Halloween party when she first arrived. I had just bought my first house in 1999 and friends had come over on an exceptionally warm night to celebrate. I had set up an area to bob for apples out back and we fired up the grill, drank silly spooky themed […]
Go to post pageI am sorry for the little hiatus the last few days, I have been down for the count with some kinda cold/bronchial funk that has kicked my butt and left me dragging myself to Dr. B’s office this morning one hot mess of pitifullness (I think I just might have made that word up) after […]
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